  Dreams won't come looking for you. That's why you have to chase them. Pursue them, until they become reality then hold on tightly.  I used to constantly look for people to replace you. Someone to talk to everyday, someone to trust, someone to believe in, someone to love, someone to have the time of my life with. I stopped though. I learned some people really can't be replaced.  There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. For this person, you’d do anything for and not think twice about it, but when asked why, you have no answer. You’ll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you’ll never find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you’ll love this person for the rest of your life without regret.  I don't think feelings change, nor people. I think situations change. I know that it's possible to dislike someone after loving them so much or to love someone after feeling so much hate towards them but, it's not because people change, it's because it's not the same anymore. It's because something made you think differently, something opened your eyes, something caused you to see everyday the way it is at last. It's like days. Days can be cloudy, or days can be sunny but days don't change, the weather does. And nothing can play a part in that or fix that, they can just let it be.  I know it hurts, I know that. But if you give up now, you may be missing someone greatly you could have never imagined before. And no one wants to miss something that will change their life forever. Just keep holding on and I promise, it will get better.  People think they know you. They think they know how you're handling a situation. But the truth is, no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you're lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone. They don't know what's going on inside your head--the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn't their fault. They just don't know. And so they pretend and they say you're doing great when you're really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.  He left. After months and months of him claiming you were his everything, and the best thing that ever happened to him. I know it sucks, but maybe him leaving was a good thing. Maybe God knew you would never to able to walk away yourself, no matter how many reasons you had to. Maybe God knew that you deserved better, and you would never get any better until you learned to let him go. And if a guy could ever think of leaving you, that proves right there that he never deserved you anyways.  I've learned a lot this year. I've learned that things don't always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should be. I've learned that there are things that go wrong, some things don't always get fixed, and some eventually get put back together the way they were before. I've learned that some things stay broken, and that you can always get through the bad times. Keep searching, as long as you always have people you love you by your side.  I would love to meet people that have their mind straight and don't bring any problems into my life. I want to meet more people that think about the same things as I do. Most of all I want to meet more people with good hearts and good brains.  Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they lead to actions. Watch your actions, they create habits. Watch your habits, they build your character. Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.  One day when you're happy with your life and just enjoying it, you'll get an unexpected text. Maybe by this time you've already forgotten his number, maybe not. And it'll be him, wanting to "talk". Wait, hold up. Remember all those tears you shed, while he shed none. Remember those corny pick up lines, remember the hurt. Look at how happy you are now. Yeah, that's what i thought. Don't answer that text.  A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.  We used to believe in a lot of things, like forever and our dreams. We used to speak of our futures. Then we both went our separate ways. We don't talk about those things anymore. We don't talk at all.  You see that girl? She seems so invincible, right? Just touch her and she'll wince. She has secrets and doesn't trust anyone. She's the perfect example of betrayal because everyone she trusted broke her.  Don't waste your time worrying about boys; they will come and go. Don't waste your time caring about the people who don't like you; chances are you don't like them either. Don't waste your time worrying if people are talking about you; you affected their life, they didn't affect yours. Waste your time with friends. Live for the moment. Laugh often. Be immature. Do anything and everything. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late. When you wake up, laugh about it with your friends because they are what matters the most. When you have your friends, you have everything.  And so you carry on, everyday. Everyday you pick yourself up just to make sure no one can see you fall. Because when someone sees something falling from the sky, they usually back away  So I keept building walls, they were getting stronger and steadier each time. It got easier to keep everyone out, It got easier to stay inside  I gathered all my strength that night not to do it. It wasn't easy but I carried myself off the floor and I constantly need to pick myself up everyday. It's a struggle but I do it, because I know there's a whole life out there, there's a world out there  "You see all these people? FUCK them. Fuck every look and every thing they have ever said to you. The thing is you could break them in half, you could destroy them physically. But you can't do that so you don't know how to fight. But they know how to mentally tear someone down.. Don't let them" |