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I'm not that good of a person. I make mistakes, I have regrets, and I act like I'm alot smarter than I actually am. I cry. I laugh way too hard, and things just seem to get me. Basically, i'm saying i'm not perfect but when I'm with you, i forget that, and it just doesn't matter anymore.

People are always gonna try and bring you down below them, but smile when they're staring and show them who's strong.

When you laugh as much as you breathe, that's when you realize how beautiful life really is.

Everyone is fighting their own battle; to be free from their past, to live in their present, and to create their future. So, have heart.

There's always that one person. No matter how many relationships they've had, how many times they didn't respond to your text, how many times they ignored you, how many times they made you feel like you didn't matter, how many times you sit on the floor crying because of them, or made you feel like shit; no matter how many times you say they don't matter, deep down, every time that they text you, look at you, give you a hug, even just say your name; your walls break down and you can't help but be happy. Even if you don't want to be.

When people say friendships don't last forever, they never met us. You're my best friend and probably the only reason I am who I am today. You've helped me shape my character and become a better, stronger person. Only you know everything- I trust you with my whole life. Be strong, stay beautiful. I love you so much.

There comes a point where you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.

No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice.

It’s important to know when a relationship has run its course. Sometimes all you can say is, "I’ve learned all I can learn from this person and we've grown all we can together.. it's time to move on."

Maybe you were all faster than me. We gave each other up so easily. These silly little wounds will never mend. I feel so far from where I’ve been. So I go, and I will not be back here again, I’m gone as the day is fading.

I know it's coming, the day when you wake up and don't think about me, don't wonder what I'm doing, and aren't tempted to text me. The day you go to school for yourself or even worse, for someone else. The day you feel happy because of someone else. The day you laugh because of someone else, the day you want someone else, the day you hug someone else and finally the day you smile because of someone else. Not for me, not because of me, not even directed at me. And that's when I'll miss you most.

For the rest of my life, I will always wonder why things seemed to be so unfair. I will always want to know what I did to deserve what happened to me. I will always wake up thinking everything's okay, later on realizing that it isn't, and that it most likely never will be. I will cry about it, and I will be angry. I will always have problems trusting people. I'll never think that anything will last. Friendships, and relationships.. all of them just seem doomed. But I still try. For the rest of my life, I will try.

Who you are is who you are. We're liars. We're thieves.
We're addicts. We take our happiness for granted until
we hurt ourselves or someone else. We hold grudges.
And when faced with our mistakes, we reinvent the past.
We reinvent ourselves. At least we try. We're prideful,
and we're lustful, and we're incredibly flawed. And eventually,
our flaws catch up to us.

Congratulations, you won. I have finally stopped trying.
You are out of my life. Probably forever. But just remember,
that when you realize that you lost your best friend, it was
your fault. Don't you dare try and pin this on me. I have
done my fair share of messing up, but this one, it's not
my fault whatsoever.

So, he told you he would never leave you right? He also
told you how you were the best thing in his life. Then
what happened? one day he got up and walked away.
He never meant anything he said. He's just another
asshole in the world of guys, but honey don't give up,
your prince charming is out there.

I hope that someday, you find an amazing girl. The kind of
girl who means everything to you & makes you want to
spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of
girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her
beautiful smile, & when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you
dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to cross your
mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she
changes you in a way you could never understand,
yet you know it’s for the better. I hope she’s the kind
of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make
you cry, even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl
who makes you want to go out & do something special,
something that means everything to the both of you. The
kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss & make
up & hold her in your arms like you’re falling in love all over
again. I hope you make memories with her you never forget.
I hope she’s your world, & what you have with her is nothing
less than perfection. & I hope that one day, you lose her.
I hope you mess up & as hard as you try to keep her there
with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart.
I hope it destroys you, because you realize you’ve lost the
person you once called your everything. I hope you see every
moment you spent together spin away down the drain like
it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night
because she’s on your mind & when you fall asleep, she
haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays
pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I
hope you realize that you’re a new person because of her,
I hope your new self feels incomplete without her & you
miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone,
because you’d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken

In order to move on, you must know why you felt the way you did, and why you no longer need to feel it.

I'm not the silly romantic you think. I don't want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don't want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want a steady hand, a kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved. --Shana Abe

Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should & let go of what you can't change.

Scrolling through your Facebook news feed: Don't care. Whore. Your life sucks. Song lyrics. Inside joke? Needs a therapist.

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it, and surround yourself with the people who make you laugh so hard you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

I am too intelligent, too demanding, and too resourceful for anyone to be able take charge of me entirely. No one knows me or love me completely. I only have myself.

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about ever again. But you do.

Sometimes you just got to know when enough is enough and let it go and move on. Then they'll realize you're not the person they thought you were. You're better.

Best friends are people you don't need to talk to every single day. You don't need to talk to each other for weeks, but when you do, it's as if you didn't even stop talking.

Don't talk to me if the only reason you're here is because you're bored. Don't make me your last resort just because you feel lonely or you have nothing else better to do. Do I entertain you? I'm not going to be the person you run to, then suddenly leave when someone better comes along.

There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself. Who knows she’s capable of anything she puts her mind to. There’s a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path. Who isn’t thrown off by obstacles along the way. There’s a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences. Who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and go on.

There is no perfect relationship. Bullshit will come up when you least expect it. Jealousy will come out of nowhere. At times you will feel replaced and at times you will feel like giving up. Just don’t go that far. Don’t give up. You’ll argue, and you won’t talk for days, but nobody says it has to be over.

Even after every bad thing he'd done to me, every lie he'd ever told, every other girl he'd ever kissed, I knew somewhere deep down inside he really did love me, in his ownmessed up way. Because you can't keep coming back to the same person time after time if those feelings aren't there.

You want me to be honest? I did love you, I loved you more than anything. I don't care what you do now. I don't care if you drink until you pass out. I don't care how much you smoke. I want you to live your life without my help and we'll see how far you get. You're a fucked up kid, so when everything comes crashing down, don't come to me again. I've been through hell these past years for you. I know you say you don't care and that you're doing fine, but we both know that's a lie. You know you've messed everything up, you're just too scared to admit it. You have a hard exterior, I'll give you that. But baby, you don't have the balls to back it up.